Reboot

I'm having a hard time getting my head wrapped around this blogging thing today. Having basically taken the weekend off, I hesitate to delve deeply into the bullshit again. And a three day backlog of bad news is particularly unappealing.

I'm not depressed like CalPundit was. In fact I had a pretty decent weekend, with a major self-generated exception… and even that was about something I needed to understand about myself.

It's more like wanting to refocus of being constructive. That was my original intent, and though I don't think I've strayed far from it I've been right on the edge of ranting sometimes. Plus, being constructive doesn't work with all individual cases… that doesn't surprise me since nothing works in all individual cases but I am occasionally caught off guard by the cases in which it doesn't.

I just spent about a hour writing stuff that I didn't feel honest posting.

The truth is, this thing feels somewhat masturbatory sometimes. Another truth is I occasonally REALLY TRULY want to verbally bitch-slap certain concepts that people really feel attached to… real world concepts, blogosphere concepts, ego concepts… I also feel a bit uncomfortable with the idea of a serious marketing effort - it's just not been my way, ever, yet if I want to impact things (the impact I'm looking for, btw, is to have Black people's perspective taken into account rather than being dismissed offhand as I feel it is all too often) that's what I'd have to do.

These are among the things I'm thinking about that will likely make me change my approach here, just a bit. Probably not enough for anyone but me to notice.

posted by Prometheus 6 at 5/26/2003 01:26:07 PM |